Pink Rabbit wrote:
Nothing good ever comes out of discussing politics, because nobody will ever agree on anything, so I don't touch the stuff.
I ban politics and religion discussions on any forum I'm an admin of where it's possible. Sadly, it's impossible here (and I lack the authority), since we're reviewing things that are often political.
I probably should. My friends tell me that most people don't think of themselves as useless, withdrawn fuckups.
I mean this as no insult, but if you're feeling worthless there is probably something grounded in reality to that. The positive side to being even partially right about that is you can diminish or eliminate those feelings it causes by changing.
You have a few options for accomplishing this.
The hardest one is self-improvement. Ideally, you need to find some marketable
skill you have an improve it. The difficulty comes from the fact it's time-consuming and you'll be undermined by your current emotional state. The payoff is being rewarded financially for something you earned. It's like multiple layers of validation all at once.
The second one is to take pride in whatever work it is you do now. Everyone has limits on how much skill they can achieve, but there aren't hard limits on dedication and most people are lazy. This allows you to build a reputation and deserve it, which will also help.
The third option is the most accessible, but it doesn't have as much of a payoff as the other two. Find something constructive to create with your hands. It has to be something physical; it is much harder to convince yourself you've done anything it it only exists in a computer or on paper. It could literally be cleaning and organizing your surroundings, gardening, pretty much any craft... the nature of what you do is only limited to constructive things you can do with your hands that result in something different you can see.
If you're a gamer, you might realize all three of those things are represented in games in some way. You can get a temporary, fragile boost by playing a game that simulates one of the things I've mentioned. Pure skill games are rare; you're pretty much looking at Super Hexagon (reflexes) and Papers, Please (attention to detail). There are more than a few blindingly difficult games that require memorizing things and a number of exploration games that take thoroughness to complete, to fulfill the dedication route. There are also a staggering number of crafting, cleaning, and organizing games for the third option (I'd probably recommend Viscera Cleanup Detail, because it's a cross of #2 and #3 despite what its name implies). None of this will help you more than actually
carving a block of wood or throwing out things you don't really need to increase how much free space is around you, but I don't know your situation.